I have been reminded a few times over the past weeks just how much my daughter watches me. The first time was when she repeated something I say too often. For the sake of a good lesson learned, I will share with you my fall from grace. She came in with her "Littlest Pet Shop" house in one hand and the door to the house in the other. Very matter of fact she said, "Grandma, the freakin' door came off." Ugh. I have never really thought about that word until I heard that ugly little sucker come out of our four year old daughter's mouth. Man did that sound ugly. I explained to her (knowing EXACTLY where she heard it) that it was a naughty word and none of us should use it. I also told her that if she should catch me using it that I could use a reminder about how yucky it sounds.
The second story is much sweeter and paints our family in a much better light! Claire prefers to go to "big church" now with Brian and I. Since we weren't serving last Sunday we obliged and she sat with us. (Not between, because I LOVE the opportunity to sit close to my husband as we absorb the Word of God. You know, the one that says don't use ugly words such as the one mentioned above!) I digress. I crossed my leg and my foot was bouncing slightly as it usually does. I looked over and saw Claire's little legs crossed just like mine and just bouncing away. I was overwhelmed. When did she grow up into a little lady? And then a little panic set in. This child looks to me for EVERYTHING. Sure the basics are important. Food, shelter, clothing and Littlest Pet Shop animals....but there is something so very important taking place. She looks to me as a model of how she will act in public, at home and toward others. After pointing her out to my husband, I quietly bowed my head and asked the Lord for guidance. "Please help me to be better so that she can be better." I have so much to learn and am growing everyday in my walk with God. I can no longer hope that she only picks up the good stuff. The truth, whether I like it or not, is that she sees it all...the good...the bad...and the ugly. So I find myself singing one of my favorite lines from a Casting Crowns song, "Be careful little feet where you go, for its the little feet behind you that are sure to follow." Are you ready to be a leader?