Monday, February 4, 2008

Wobbly

Furst off, spel chek isnt wurking so bare wiht me. ;-)

Claire had her ultrasound today and everything went fine. We don't know anything yet but will hopefully hear from Dr. Turpin's office tomorrow. Here is how our morning went!

I gave Claire a cup of milk first thing in the morning. We got ready and headed out to take Coco to Nanny and Papa's house. I stopped and got us all drinks from Sonic. I got Claire a 32 oz. Cherry Limeade (not a normal thing!) so that she would have a full bladder for the ultrasound. By the time we dropped Cohen off and got into the waiting room at St. John's.....IT WAS GONE! And of course, she never asked to go potty! This child is unbelievable! The receptionists and nurses were awesome. Claire got a special coloring book and crayons so we could color in the girl who was getting an ultrasound and talk a little bit about it. We got in and she started to get a little freaked out. When the tech actually came in and started she started crying. We quickly turned the conversation to other things and she soon forgot what he was even doing. He did say that he had NEVER seen a 3 year old's bladder so full. He asked her if she needed to go potty and she said, "Nope." He couldn't believe it! He did want her to go so that he could get a few pictures without her "mega-bladder" in the way! She was then loaded down with stickers and compliments from the receptionists and we were on our way. We decided to make the most of a girls morning out and went for a little pampering! We stopped in at Cookie Cutters and got her hair cut. What is crazy it that her hair still goes to the middle of her back and we cut off 2&1/2 inches! It looks beautiful and so healthy. Then we picked up lunch for Nanny, Cohen, Steph, Drew and Levi and headed back to Nanny and Papa's house. The kids played outside and enjoyed the BEAUTIFUL 76 degree weather!

This time in my life has been a real challenge. There are things happening that I just don't understand. There are days when I just have to really work on myself. Some days my faith can get a little "wobbly" (that's a technical term). I have a second cousin who lives in Washington. I just learned that her little boy (Caleb) who is 4 months old passed away in his sleep. My heart knows that he is with the Lord and that he is in a much better place than we are. But my brain can't understand. I don't know how you survive that. I just feel like I can't pray enough for Michelle. The baby's father is in Iraq but had just been home for Christmas. My heart aches for her and every parent in the world who has been dealt this devastating blow. It makes me sick to my stomach and I'm really struggling with this one.

So tonight, I will thank God for every second that I have with my children. I will do my very best to remember that each second is a gift that I have been blessed with, not a luxury I am entitled to. I still can't believe that God has entrusted me with these perfect little beings and has faith in me that I will raise them up to serve Him. It's a little overwhelming, but I like a challenge.

On a lighter note. I just remembered as I was typing that last sentence something that Claire said today that filled me with joy. As we were walking out of the hospital I said, "Oh Claire what a beautiful day!" She said, "That's because God made it!" I have so much to learn from my 3 year old!

2 comments:

Teri said...

Don't forget: (When you are questioning, when you are doubting and when your heart aches.)

Ecclesiates 3:11a He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Phillipians 1:6 And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.

I love you sister - Teri

Sheila said...

I'm glad you said something about being "wobley". I have been having a really hard time with Michelle's baby dying. Cant seem to get her out of my head. And I look at my boys and I am So grateful!
I love you!