flabbalicious.

I just heard something on the Oprah show and had to rush over here and blog. Why? Because I am going public in order to keep myself accountable. I am in terrible shape. My body is screaming at me right now. My back hurts so badly everyday. I can very easily chalk it up to my 40 pound 2 year old, but the fact is....my core is incredibly weak. I was once an athlete in tip top shape. I remember going to a camp one summer when they tested our body fat percentage. (Really tested it with electrodes and everything.) 6 percent. That was the amount of fat I had on my body. NO, that is not my goal but I would be willing to bet that you could multiply that number by 7 or 8 and you would get my current body fat percentage. (honestly, I know I am not considered overweight but I do know that I have little to no muscle tone.) This is not acceptable. It has absolutely nothing to do with my weight. Well, it does have a little to do with that but most importantly....I am abusing my body! This body is the only one I have. This body is the one that God gave me. He entrusted me with it and I am NOT taking care of it in a way that would make Him happy. I watched this lady talk about why she put her weight back on after losing 50 pounds and I can say the exact same thing.

It has been a rough couple of years. I've battled depression, lost family members and friends and I am currently watching one of my best friends fight stage 4 colon cancer. But guess what? During all of this, my legs take me where I need to go. My arms allowed me to hug the ones I hold most dear when I needed comfort. My heart continues to beat and is filled with love for those people as well as my savior Jesus Christ. My body continues to be so good to me despite the fact that I fill it full of fat, calories and junk. It keeps working day after day while I refuse to exercise. However, at the age of 28, it is starting to give me little signs that I need to be doing something a little different. So I'm putting myself out here. I'm getting a plan in place as I type. Watch me go.